2020 har været et vanvittigt år…
Min elskede far, min pappi, gik bort d. 26. marts meget pludseligt. Han havde kæmpet en tapper kamp i 7 år mod en aggressiv kræft-sygdom. Min far var min klippe og mit støtte, og fulgte mig tæt på min kringlede vej som kunster. Tabet er stort og ubeskriveligt smertefuldt – han mangler hver dag!
Samtidig med hans død var jeg højgravid med min lille datter Salka Liv. Grundet en kronisk sygdom i livmoderen kaldet endometriose, kan jeg ikke blive naturligt gravid, men efter to års forsøg med diverse hormon-behandlinger, inseminationer og til sidst IVF lykkedes det endelig. Vores smukke lille pige kom til verden i maj, blot en måned efter min fars død, og på dramatisk vis – en fødsel der ente i akut kejsersnit, men hendes skytsengel morfar pappi, holdt hånden over os og alt endte godt.
Så står man der – midt i det smukkeste og bedste der nogen sinde er sket i livet, samtidig med det aller værste og hårdeste. Dyb sorg og den rene lykke på én og samme tid… Det er svært at finde balancen mellem disse modstridende følelser. Jeg har fundet ud af at det nemmeste er at lade hver følelse fylde når den kommer! Grin og smil når glæden fylder - og græd og vær vred når sorgen overvælder. Prøv ikke at bekæmpe det, bare være i det. Om man så står midt i Super Brugsen!
Oveni i alt der her har COVID-19 raseret! Udstillinger der blev aflyst- og først 4 måneder efter min fars død kunne vi invitere til en stor mindehøjtidelighed for at give ham den værdige afsked som han fortjente! Salka Liv har stadig ikke mødt alle sine familiemedlemmer og venner, og har heller ikke set sit land Island endnu, selvom hun er islandsk statsborger ligesom sin mor - men vi tager det stille og roligt og haster ikke, tingene sker når de skal ske.
Arbejdsmæssigt har jeg været i hig for at heale for en stund… jeg healer stadig men er begyndt at dukke lidt op til overfalden og trække ny luft igen. 2021 har gode ting i vente… Jeg kan mærke en ny lysere energi og jeg glæder mig til at gå den i møde.
Først og fremmest er jeg beæret over at blive kontaktet af NGO’en GADENS BØRN, som er en non-profit organisation der gør en stor indsats for at hjælpe gadebørnene i Indien til et bedre liv. Med skole, mad, et hjem, omsorg. Alle børn har brug for kærlighed og tryghed, og det varmer mit nye moder-hjerte at vide at der findes ildsjæle der gør alt for at hjælpe her. Derfor var jeg heller ikke i tvivl da de spurgte om jeg ville donere et af mine malerier til den årlige GALLA AFTEN, hvor der vil været et kæmpe show med underholdning, gourmet-middag og en stor aktion, hvor alle penge går ubeskåret til børnene. Gallaen afholdes d. 18. september 2021 på smukke Clarion Hotel Copenhagen Airport.
English
Grief and joy at once…2020 has been a crazy year…
My beloved father, my Pappi, passed away on March 26th very suddenly. For seven years he had been fighting a brave battle against an aggressive cancer disease. My father was my rock and my support, and followed me close on my path as an artist. The loss is great and indescribably painful - he is missing every day!
At the time of his death, I was heavily pregnant with my little daughter Salka Liv. Due to a chronic disease of the uterus called endometriosis, I can not get pregnant naturally, but after two years of trying various hormone treatments, inseminations and eventually IVF, I finally succeeded. Our beautiful little girl came into the world in May 2020, just a month after my father's death, and in a dramatic way - a birth that ended in an acute c-cection, but her guardian angel grandfather Pappi, held his hand over us and everything ended well.
Then you stand there - in the middle of the most beautiful and best thing that has ever happened in life, at the same time as the very worst and hardest time in your life. Deep sorrow and pure happiness at the same time… It is difficult to find the balance between these conflicting emotions. I have found that the easiest thing is to let every emotion fill when it comes! Laugh and smile when joy fills - and cry and be angry when grief overwhelms. Try not to fight it, just be in it. Also if you are in the middle of grocery shopping!
On top of everything here, COVID-19 has raged! Exhibitions has been canceled - and 4 months after my father's death we could invite to a big memorial service to give him the dignified farewell he deserved! It was a long time to wait! Salka Liv has still not met all her family members and friends, nor has she seen her country Iceland yet, even though she is an Icelandic citizen like her mother - but we take it easy and do not rush, things happen when they should.
At work I have been in hig to heal for a while… I am still healing but have started to show up a bit to the surface and breathe new air again. 2021 has good things in store… I can feel a new brighter energy and I look forward to meeting it.
First of all, I am honored to be contacted by the NGO CHILDREN OF THE STREET, which is a non-profit organization that makes a great effort to help the street children in India to a better life. With school, food, a home, care. All children needs love and security, and it warms my new mother's heart to know that there are passionate souls who do everything they can to help here. Therefore, I was also in no doubt when they asked if I would donate one of my paintings to the annual GALLA EVENING, where there will be a huge show with entertainment, gourmet dinner and a big show. All the money goes uncut to the kids.
